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I am sleep less and I have been slowly growing
in this feeling for some time now. But it hasn’t come to me any clearer
then now why I have this burning feeling in my heart. All is coming more
clearly to me. I am running out of time. I am full of visions, ideas,
theories and feeling its like god it packing more bread in to my toaster
then I can possible handle. I am rest less. I have spent this entire
year chasing everything in sight. Doing all I can never wasting a
chances or a moment. But I have to now sit and chose what paths to take
and what to see because my journey is almost over. Today I spoke before
my entire school. And I did it all in Chinese. Not going to lie but my
Chinese is awesome right now I can communicate and be funny and be I. Be
me in Chinese. Hard at first but now wow. I remember there was this
rotary lady that spoke to me a before I came. We were in Orlando I had
just gotten out of the pool. And she said to me its not going to be easy
for you. You’re going to be really challenged with language because you
like to succeed in everything. And she was right. I kind have played off
the language thing all year and tried not to show that yeah I am pissed
because I can’t express my self. And me not to be able to express my
feelings is like me to be with my surfboard in front of amazing waves.
Very pain full. But yes this was a mountain that I have finally reached,
I stood before my entire school and gave a great speech I could tell
jokes I was able to speak Taiwanese and Chinese. It was great. I
expressed my self. I spoke MY MIND. I SPOKE MY MIND IN TAIWAN, I SAID IT
ALL AND WAS UNDERSTOOD. Oh my god it just the best feeling ever. SO back
to the realization of my now lack of time. SO I have seen all Taiwan.
All of it but this one mountain. The tallest mountain Yushan. I am
planning to climb it before I go home. All that’s in Gods hands. 3952m.
of pure rock. Yeah soon I will do it with the hand of god. But how do I
feel? I am so happy but. It’s all coming to the end. The best way to
describe my feeling is through a vision I just had. You see I was
sitting in my bed not able to sleep and god was talking to me saying,
Javier you are at the end of the road and you are reaching for the hands
of all the people you have meet this year and all of your priceless
experiences. But you are being pulled away by all those you left behind
some time ago. You are just fingertips away from everything you have
done and seen. You can feel it. You have gotten to the top of the
mountain but now you are repelling down. The repel seems slow but also
fast. But the repel is so much fun because you are using and seeing all
you have learned on the way up. You are now just in touching distances
of all you have grown to love. Before you could grab there hands and
hold and feel your experiences but now they are becoming just thoughts
and memories. But you must keep looking up because it is not over yet.
It is just the beginning. And I ask my self. The beginning? God the
beginning of what? And his answer is as clear as the waves I surfed last
month. The beginning of the rest of your life. So I still have much time
to learn. Much precious time to see what God wants to show me and do the
works God has planned. But I must not lose thought or sight of his
visions that he has given me or the wisdom I have learned. It will be
soon that I will be standing before you telling you my stories and
sharing laughs with you. It will be soon but please don’t pull me down
this mountain to fast.
Love you all Good night I now know I can sleep my mind is clear and my heart in fresh. Thank you all for your prayers and support. I came as a surfer to Taiwan and I will leave as a mountain climber for God. |